so here's nat, TESTING IT OUT.

(after i don't know how long!)

it's been a funny-good time since she came home and believe me, i sure laughed a hell lot when she was having her dips of the belacan while i was devouring the food.

we talked about everything, spice girls even. it feels nice to know that i don't have to mad-dial when i have some big news. well at least for another 2 weeks.

i know things have been tough and i wish i could understand what you do and how you do what you do and understand what you are going through in every way so that maybe, just maybe i could make things easy/easier.

but i do know that sometimes, you have got to learn things on your own.
and that's where when somethings happen, you don't just let it happen, you challenge it.
you challenge you.

the walk i took with you, was one i will remember cause it was a day i didn't know what to say to you.
but when i saw you, it ached too much to be leave you with such discomfort.
and it ached even more when it didn't feel like i was making you feel better, i don't know if i did.
and you are not obliged to say i did.

on that note, i'll be here, no matter.
i love you.